Today, i struggled with being a mom of two, a wife and trying to keep everything in place physically and mentally. I didnt know what to do except to spend some time walking and writing. Its been a while since i “wrote” something for fun and not for work.
I am never trying to be a perfect mom but i am trying my best to be a house keeper. Why? you might ask. I dont have an answer for you. But i really dislike things in a mess. It is a complete eyesore to me.
I walked away today. Not because i don’t care about anyone. But, I just don’t want the kids to see me being upset and i just needed my own space and time and this is the way for me to recover.
Am i okay? I am not okay, for that moment as i was upset. That is the truth and there is nothing to hide about it.
I questioned myself – Am i suitable to be a mom? Well, the truth is, no one is born to be a mom. No one taught us on how to be one. We learn from experiences and we grow from it.
Is there a perfect parenting? My answer will be no.
You can probably find tips on those parenting 101 by googling or reading a physical book.
I am an old school buff. I love the smell of a physical book. I dont like kindle as it just dosent have that feeling but it is definitely more environmentally friendly and sustainable (if you do not replace your kindle every 2 years). Anyway, my point is, works for one might not be suitable for you. Hence, find your own space.
When we look back at all these incidents, we will realised that it dosent even matter as we might not even remember and life is really too short to remember it.
Poof for now as i go and indulge myself in some comfort MOS burger. Whatever that works to make you feel better. Corn Soup and a Tsukune burger. Those will be my answers for a rainy day.
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